Too much gif-ing is of stuff just released. Youtube has years of videos that were never gifed. Also… remember when all the five awesome girls were rapping? I sure do.
Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.
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My girlfriend told me a dream of hers where I was really sweet and cute. It turns out that dream me is actually me, but simply moves faster than I actually do in relationships. I gotta punch that guy next time I see him.
I’ve had a full beard for the good part of like 5 months, but my girl wanted me to shave it out of pure curiosity. Since it’s her birthday this Friday I went ahead and did it. I strongly prefer myself with a beard, but she’s the one that has to have sex with me. She makes the calls about my appearance. I’ll slowly grow back my beard and probably keep it short this time though.
I love it that my girl takes up my entire weekend. I even started eating healthy and thankfully she doesn’t mind too much. We went to the park earlier to just hang out and enjoy the weather. I grabbed some healthy choices while she grabbed some takeout. She called me weird for doing so, but she gets that I want to be more healthy. I’ve always eaten healthy; it’s just that now I’m trying to step it up further.
It feels great to be in a relationship with someone that loves me. It just makes days go by easier somehow. At times she takes up large parts of my days, but I love it when she’s around.
I never imagined myself so much as a relationship guy, but I’ve realized that the baggage I bring to a relationship is a positive. I practically just do happy. It’s odd to explain, but my past played a factor in me being like this.
Today I showed my girlfriend a chunk of my inner thoughts. Throughout most of my classes I write my thoughts on the back of my notebook pages and one time a few weeks back I mentioned this.
She pushed the thought of seeing them and I eventually caved. I guess in my mind I viewed it as strengthening the relationship. Most of the thoughts she read involved her, so no harm. It was kinda weird to show someone though.
Last night I thought I made my girlfriend mad because towards the end of a long amazing day together she became a ball of emotions. Luckily she revealed that it wasn’t really anything I did that bothered her, but she just had some things to figure out.
Today was just a really awesome day.
My girl brought me Chinese for lunch. Then, we talked and cuddled until she had to go to work.
I went for a run then took a nap.
When she got off work she came back to my place and we just had a nice time. I just love holding my partner close to me.
Mixed up some things in bed later in the night and we both just had a blast.
Nothing too special about this post, but I like to go back and see things like this.
I almost had a normal sleep schedule tonight. I was gonna crash out a bit after 1, but then my girlfriend called and we talked for 4 hours. Better luck tomorrow.
I never know when my girl is mad at me or just being emotional. I always feel guilty when this happens, but it’s just… yeah.
Recently I’ve had the privilege of being swept off my feet in a way by a new girl. She’s pretty magical. Valentine’s Day was spent together watching Monty Python films. I got her roses and Kahlua. It was an ideal V Day.
She doesn’t realize she’s out of my league. Yeah, she’s easily the best girl I’ve ever had in my life.
Yesterday was easily the best day I’ve had in quite some time.
1st class – I was second to finish a test because I’m simply awesome like that.
2nd class- The professor taught the class entirely in Italian as if it was an immersion 101 course. It was fun and weird, but it did have a purpose thankfully.
3rd class – Had a quiz which the topic was something I just I wrote a paper on. It was writing an analysis of Beauty and the Beast from a feminist prospective.
Lunch – Before lunch starts I am told that a really cute girl I talk to occasionally has a thing for me. This is just always nice to hear because I would easily rate this girl a 9, far better than I’ve done so far in life probably. Either ways three of us from class head out to Chili’s, with the cute girl included, and we just have a very awesome nerdy and geeky time. It was nice to know that people this attractive have awesome interests and they are not purely a myth. She’s a dual major English and Criminal Justice with a minor in IT. I’m an English major with a Criminal Justice minor, so small world I guess. This is not a very common thing to graduate with, so it was nice seeing someone else taking it that much further. We rambled LOTR, Stargate SG1, Monty Python, HIMYM, and even a bit of Joss Whedon’s Angel. This experience simply reminded me how wrong my last relationship was. I got her number and have a loose plan this weekend to hang out with her. If it falls through I wouldn’t be shocked since the event for her to come to is a friend’s birthday party. Everyone just plans on getting trashed.
Post School – Played some Black Ops where I had a match where I went 25-14 with a knife and Bouncing Betties. Had a nice workout and while doing cardio I caught up with two friends. Each of them were on different machines that were on both of my sides. I crashed out a little past midnight and slept for 10 hours.
